Love Lesson No. 121
I don’t know tarot.
But, I got this gorgeous deck (The Linestrider Tarot) from my son for Christmas. The cards are so stunning! I can’t stop playing with them.
I draw a card before yoga. I study it a bit. Tune in to my intuition before I read about it in the book. Maybe take a few notes.
Salt lamp on, candles lit and comfortably seated – I focus my attention on the deck in my hand. Then, I shuffle. And… flip.
FOUR OF CUPS.
Muted tones. Moody. Mysterious.
I open the book and grab my pen at the same time. I immediately start writing the words that catch my attention.
Lack of vision
Blind to blessings and opportunities
F*ck the Four of Cups! With its braless babe wearing a plaid scarf. Her eyes are closed. She can’t even look at me.
Weary of the struggle
I’ve been called out by card. PWND by ink and paper. Because I DO feel that way. I also feel numb. But, not because I want to.
And, I thought I was hiding this all so well. Allowing the cold, gray suck of winter drag me into its darkness. While acting like everything is fine. Ugh.
I eventually decide on a restorative practice. Because I always need more practice relaxing into the form and releasing muscle tension. Sinking and deepening.
It’s rough. But, I keep trying.
With part of my awareness still on the words I wrote from the book…
Call to action
Break the routine
Open to new experiences
The energy changes at that instant.
Turn inward to truth
Find fresh motivation
Help someone else
At the same time, the sun suddenly blasts through the bedroom window and slams into the outside of my eyelids! Now, I see it glowing from the inside. So bright, I feel it all over my body. I smile and seep tears at the same time. I sense the support of angels and spirit guides. Mostly Gloria.
I remember reading that they’d rather be recognized by an energetic feeling than by name.
THIS is the feeling.
Not necessarily “better,” but supported by the light. Sunlight. Inner light. Guiding light.
That everything is not perfectly okay…
and that is perfectly okay.
Focus on positive change
Step back on path
Rouse from stagnant state
Knowing I am light.
Because I am love.
PS: Please don’t worry. I made peace with Four of Cups. We’re cool now.