fitting in

Love Lesson No. 111

It always feels like jamming the proverbial (slightly chubby) square peg into the (uncomfortably restrictive) round hole.

The struggle is real.

The more it’s forced, the more I’m screwed.

It’s not so much that I care what people think of me.

I just want to be comfortable being myself. To celebrate who I am. To not feel judged. I guess that’s what “fitting in” means to me.

Not the easiest when I suck at small talk.

Instead, I can’t wait to show you my newest crystal that’s hiding in my bra. Right now. I’ll try and recruit you for roller derby. I’m super excited about some random project! Oh.. and you’ll be sick of hearing about my kids.

I’ll laugh too much. Seconds after tearing up. I’ll likely drop some of my four-letter favorites.

None of it will come out as appropriately as it should.

. . . . .

I’ve been told I’m too loud. Too standoffish. Unfocused.

I’ll own all that.

But, if I seemed rude, dismissive or judgemental – that was not my intention. It never is. Sometimes thoughts sneak out of my mouth that should have stayed in my head.

I am sorry. And, FWIW, I’m sure I worried too much about it afterward.

So, if you sat next to me (on purpose or by accident)…

If you’ve reached out in kindness…

If we’ve traveled together…

If you chose to spend time with me…

If you’ve challenged me…

If you’ve helped me…

If you’ve heard me…

Even if you’ve barely tolerated me…

And got stuck with me anyway…


You’ve helped me believe in myself and I appreciate you.

Hopefully, I made you comfortable enough to show me your truth.

I will love that about you… and me. 😉

♥ Suni

About Suni Speaks

I love using my experiences as a hypnotist to share the benefits of hypnosis in unexpected ways. I’ll hypnotize anyone to help them reconnect with who they really are. And, guide their best self toward their biggest dreams. Between sessions and gatherings, I try to find love in the little things. Sometimes I write about it. ♥

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